Since 11/7/03 I have realized that there aren’t enough words in the word, they have not been invented yet and those that do exist are empty and so many times not what they should be, so inappropriate, just missing the point, too “almost”, too little, not enough, not quite. Nir, How do we say goodbye? It’s been almost a month and it’s still so hard to believe, it just doesn’t register. Many times I find myself stopping and thinking, trying to understand how it could be that you will not be here anymore, I miss you! You always wanted to stay a boy forever and devastatingly you will always remain nineteen. I remember you, Nir, tall, handsome, happy, a true friend, a kind person, a devoted grandson, son and brother. Your presence was a gift to us all, you were “a one and only” with your sweet smile that I will never forget. You’ve gone away, you took the Spring and left us with Autumn, you were taken too early and I am sad, so very sad. My young cousin, you were like a brother to me, we grew up together, we experienced life together, we partied together and now you are gone. I want you to know that you have a family that misses you so much and loves you unconditionally- mom, dad, Roye, Zeev, Hadas, grandpa, grandma and you have friends, so many loyal friends who are thinking of you- all the time. And maybe Natan Zach’s words are better than mine: “And I haven’t said it all and I have so much more to say before it is too late and the crowd will disappear and everyone will commit to memory what everyone remembers when all the others forget to say what has been said and what has not and I haven’t said it all” Shiri